Noone ever forgives us for changing. They want us to be constant as the wind and always wear the same colours but we’re not meant to be that way. We’re supposed to be a little different each morning when we wake up and I think it’s our dreams that do it. Last night I was a sailor and woke with sand in my sheets and salt in my hair, and the night before that I was a wood nymph who rose with the dawn chorus and dewed lips. Every two years I change alltogether and become someone else wearing the same eyes. It’s a little uncomfortable, like a snake shedding skins. They never forgive me for changing but I do it with passion because you need to die a little bit now and then to feel alive.
(p.s. aren’t these the prettiest flowers? they seem to worship the sky. could you even choose a more perfect name for them than ‘cosmos’?)
February 3, 2010
68 responses to Two Years
I am completely enchanted by your blog. You are an amazing writer. I hope you are aware that you are immensely talented and hugely inspiring. Your words are so perfectly crafted. ♥
This comment really made my day, thank you so much. I often hate my writing so much because the words are never as perfect as the pictures in my head, but hearing this from someone else means the world to me ♥
That was beautiful. Never be afraid of making a change for the better.
Thank you, I try not to be afraid of change but sometimes it makes me a little dizzy and I wish I could stand still for a while.
Most people are afraid of change. And most people will hold on to you for dear life to try and keep you on the same page as them, regardless of what’s good for you.
This is just what we’ve come to know, I guess.
Good luck with your rebirth, I just had one last September. =]
That is so very true. I don’t think I’m skin-shedding at the moment, but I’m still coming to terms with the last one.
Thank you ♥
“you need to die a little bit now and then to feel alive”
i love this line. Beautiful post.
Thank you, I’m happy that you like this bit.
You are such a beautiful person, as far as I can tell. Thank you for that.
Rebirths are frequent for me. I read, hear, or see something that will make me completely change, and thus, I am a new girl.
Those flowers are very, very pretty (:
I am so glad I am not the only one. I saw a raven once and that did it, and of course books do it all the time and I try and avoid music if I can help it because my moods are so fragile.
I wish I could send you a posy of cosmos ♥
Have you ever considered writing a whole book? Your words are like water.
I’m always trying to write one, but they tend to die before I finish them. I am going to self-publish a little photo book with some words this year though, I’m quite excited about that.
Thank you ♥
i could not agree more with what you said, about how you have to die a little bit to feel alive. i’m glad to know someone else thinks so too.
& that is a most appropriate name for the flowers! they are so very pretty.
xx
These are from a neighbours garden, but I am going to plant loads of them this year.
xx
You always write the most lovely little stories. I wish my words were as eloquent as yours.
Such a beautiful post. And I agree with kagitsune, you should really write a book.
Always,
Ellie Grace
I don’t think my words are very eloquent, they always seem to stumble a bit, but thank you so much. I try and write every day, I think that helps.
xx
People like predictability. People like to try to figure out others– whether it’s their friends, acquaintances, or even strangers we pass out on the street. People come and go in our lives, and sometimes, that’s because they don’t know how to deal with us as the very real changing, growing human beings that we all are. The people who will stick with you, grow with you, change with you– don’t let go of them. :)
You are right about all of this, but it makes me sad to lose friends because they don’t understand change. I think I am lucky to have some friends now who do though. Thank you.
I adore your blog, it’s like walking into a dream ♥
Thank you ♥
Change is a constant in life. It happens within us and outside of us. I think it is wise that you can recognize the need for your own self change and brave that you embrace the change. It can be scary for yourself and others. People like the familar, that is why it is feared. They won’t know what will come of it. Just follow the beat of your heart and live each day beautifully.
This is beautiful advice.
Might I ask who you have become in this, your most recent change?
I haven’t undergone a big change in a while, I think I must be about due for one though.
So true. And even more for people like me who are not the kind who likes routine, settle down, do the same things every day. I like many different things, I like to change, to incorporate things, to learn more and to be more.
I don’t like routine either. I’m like an insect buzzing from flower to flower, whatever interests me, all day long. I used to hate being that way, but now I accept that’s just the way I am. Learning is exciting! I am learning a new language and how to read music (which is another language really.)
Very true :)
That was a beautiful way of describing the way we all change.
It gets uncomfortable sometimes, doesn’t it? i find that when i know i’m not quite who i was but still am not yet quite who i’m becoming is the worst for me. That sense of limbo makes me just a little jittery. But change for the better is always such a beautiful thing.
Yes, it’s horrible sometimes. We go through life trying to figure out who we are, but as soon as we become confident that we finally understand ourselves, it all changes, like someone kicking up your jigsaw puzzle.
I agree with you entirely. We must change, yet they can never accept it. The swaying of the tide, I suppose.
and the flowers are truely beautiful :)
<3
Raelynn
Im glad that you like them too <3
I don’t know what to say but thank you.
You’re welcome.
This post is absolutely beautiful! I love catching glimpses of how you see the world through your writings. You have such a remarkable gift to describe things with such magic. You are an inspiration to me.
I agree with everything you wrote in this post: our dreams at night and our daydreams during the day are what really influence how we grow and who we become. I like to imagine that every waking moment fills our cups drop by drop, and when the water reaches the brim it’s time to get a new one. Sometimes change can be scary, but I like to look at it as a wonderful new adventure, or an exotic land to explore! Change opens new doors that otherwise might have remained closed.
Oh, and I never properly thanked you for answering my inquiry about Patience last April. Your answer helped me so much, and now Patience is a virtue I feel I’ve grown quite comfortable with. Thank you so much; both the Princess Portal and this site have made such a difference in my life! :)
That is a beautiful metaphor, yes. So often I wake in the morning, still half dreaming and realise I am not the same Skye who went to sleep the night before.
You’re welcome, thank you for staying with me through the changes.
The cosmos are utterly beautiful. Just like each and every one of your words.
The only constant in life is change :)
The cosmos is beautiful, and so are these flowers. Thank you.
I love how you describe the sailor dream! I love the beach, and dreams with the sea involved make me happy, so thanks for envoking summer into your words. You write beautifully. I love reading posts that actually seem to have meaning, or a flair for writing. One day I hope I can blog as good as you can. My blog’s kind of a heap of different thoughts, random and all over the place. Your’s has magic in it.
I love the beach too, especially in the evening or when it’s cloudy. I’m lucky because there is a beach about 20mins drive from me, so sometimes I literally wake with salty hair.
Thank you.
It’s the people who are too afraid to change that resent those who do. But we must do it in spite of them, and really for them – so they can find the courage to live for and by themselves.
So very true. I like to think chasing after change is better than waiting for it to hit you and dump you like a big wave.
dearest skye, you have the most wonderful, magical words out of them all, never change <3
Dearest Suzannah, you have the kindest, sweetest comments.. however I will always change!
it’s like you knew exactly what i was thinking of right this moment and wrote it out here. thank youu
I wish I could say that was true, but Im glad we both think the same way.
This is brilliantly, painfully true.
Thanks for summing it up so beautifully.
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Thank you <3
so true and beautiful♥
Hi, I just found your blog! It’s really wonderful and I think you are doing a good job!
Your writing are simply gorgeous, fasinating and so so inspiring to me. ♥
I’m in constant change. I like to many things at the same time & can’t decide wich one I like the most. But change sometimes it’s good. We can develope our selves and become better persons everytime we change. There won’t be any chalengings in life if everything always stay the same.
Thank you so much ♥
I want to be lots of things at the same time too. That is why I read books.
Dear princess, i like your style! “Change yourself, change yourself, only in constant change there is life!”
That is a great quote. Thank you.
My mom has a ton of cosmos growing in her yard, they remind me of my childhood. They look delicate but they are hearty!
I agree with you, you always need to evolve.
“Last night I was a sailor and woke with sand in my sheets and salt in my hair…”
Lovely, like a cool pebble in your palm.
xox,
Susan
Change is such a wonderful thing. It keeps us on our toes. Without it we become dull and colorless.
I find my life like a huge collection of cds, with many different styles and artists. I’m always adding to it and every once in a while I lose a cd or two.
Oh, this was so beautifully remarkeable! Exactly what I needed to read tonight as I embark on my own journey of transformation – terrified of how they will try to keep me locked in the box of my past when I am longing to break free and soar. You always seem to know just what to write!
This is such a beautiful little piece of prose. Sometimes it’s hard on friends who haven’t changed as much as we have or have changed in an altogether different direction, but if we never change we can never grow as people, and that is ultimately the most important thing.
“you need to die a little bit now and then to feel alive” – never anything more true.
“you need to die a little bit now and then to feel alive” – never were more truer words spoken.
beautiful xx
I know I can always find you here :)
I really look forward to looking and reading this page when I can.
Change is always good, but it’s never easy or quick. I know the familiar expectation that you should always remain the same, I always feel like I let the other person down when it’s not the case.
I do feel stronger these days when people accept the change in me. I hope you will feel the same way soon.
And you have always been able to captivate people with your photos and words, please don’t ever stop.
<3
I’ll write it down to my diary, with my most beautiful handwriting, without translation, because it is true and I should never ever forget it.
Thank you.
This post is perfect in all its simplicity.
I love the flowers, and love what you wrote.
This blog always amazes me and stretches my immaginations a tad bit more!
:)
Tia put into words exactly what I feel about you. <3
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I changed a lot last in december, a friend forgave for a mistake i made and trusts me with anything now, learning from a mistake is the best change i think, especially if you can change someone else too.
I know how you feel. It’s hard enough to be different, but when you are going through a change, you feel even more isolated. People want me to be a mirror image of them, but I choose to be my own self.